www.mentalparent.com – Head over and show some support
After the meeting with my doctor I sat for a long time wondering…is it really just depression? Maybe there is nothing wrong with me. I am sure I am just making this up. That day I went off my medications completely. About a week later…I became incredibly manic. I felt like an electrified bumblebee just buzzing around my kitchen finding things to clean faster than the speed of sound. I became hypersexual, practically humping my husband at the dinner table with no regard for anyone watching. It was the best/worst days of the experience. It was about 2 days of mania before I spiralled down…hard. Bad enough to worry Joe…which takes a lot. For nearly a week a sat on the couch and watched my family go on with their normal routines as if I were paralysed. Unshowered and unmotivated…I felt dead. As if iron were running through my veins, the smallest things felt like great challenges. I wept, for no reason. I laid, in a daze paying no attention to my surroundings, I was in another world. Finally Joe confronted me and questioned why I kept doing this. I told him “There is nothing wrong, I am just sad, they said I just had a shitty Mom”. He grabbed me and said “There is something wrong, this is your proof, you are not here Heather, you have gone somewhere else. Please, go back on your medication…it was obviously doing something…if not staving away this”.
The above quote is from a post of theirs entitled “Going off my meds – Recipe For Disaster”
I was contacted by Heather over at http://www.mentalparent.com earlier today. The website may be a better resource for those of you who have children than my blog here. They offer a perspective that I cannot provide (No kids).
All the best,